A night shift job sounded perfect for me. I had always been a night owl and seemed to thrive on less sleep than others. What could possibly go wrong? By the end of my first shift, I realized my mistake. As I lay in bed at 9 am, the sun invaded the room through the edges of the drawn curtains. I had to be at work again in 11 hours, and as the minutes ticked by my panic grew. I counted sheep. I listened to a guided meditation podcast. Eventually I gave up. It wasn’t until 4 pm that I finally crashed, my body too exhausted to care about the glaring sun or the fact that it was nowhere near night. Three hours later I got up to do it again.
Weeks of night shift work turned into months, and my mood disintegrated a little each day. I was irritable, I was short with people, and I was so very sad. Then one day I couldn’t move. I was so tired and my body just said no. I called in sick and slept and slept and slept. When I woke up it was dark. I looked at the clock and calculated how much time I had before I was supposed to be at work again. 14 hours. I knew I couldn’t do it. I no longer had the capacity for panic, I just knew I wasn’t going to be able to get up. Or get dressed. Or leave the house. I couldn’t foresee those things happening for a while. I couldn’t foresee anything at all but an endless sadness.
Sleep is a remarkably restorative process that rejuvenates both the mind and the body. Circadian rhythms are built into our bodies, telling us when it’s time to sleep and providing natural regulation of sleep duration. When normal circadian patterns are disrupted, there can be serious consequences for both physical and mental health; sleep dysregulation can weaken the immune system, increase irritability and fatigue, and impair cardiovascular, metabolic, and cognitive function. It can also be a significant contributing factor in mental health disorders such as depression, anxiety, and bipolar disorder. As such, night shift work and other activities that interfere with sleep can presents real health dangers, particularly to people with a history of psychiatric distress


