Bipolar disorder is perhaps one of the most storied mental health disorders in existence, simultaneously romanticized and stigmatized. “You know, Tolstoy had bipolar disorder,” my mom likes to tell me, as if bipolar disorder is a kind of exclusive club, filled with potential for genius. Neither of us really knows if Tolstoy had bipolar disorder, but it is a narrative that brings her comfort and lets her find a sense of possibility within my illness. The stories we tell about bipolar disorder reveal our ideals, our fears, our misinformation, our desire to find the silver lining. But perhaps the most powerful and dangerous story of all is the one we so often tell ourselves: that we are fine.
For people who have struggled with bipolar disorder, “fine” is an elusive and wonderful place to be, the place we seek with every pill we swallow and every therapy appointment we attend. It can be so wildly appealing that we push and explain away the signs that we are wrong to help us enjoy the illusion and finally reap the rewards of our hard work. And “fine” is not a purely selfish pursuit; when we are fine, those we love don’t have to worry. When we are fine, we can work. When we are fine, we can be relied upon. There’s a lot riding on us being fine.
Believing we are fine when we are not is, of course, dangerous. Ultimately, it does not help us or those we love, but only increases harm. Now, a new mood tracking app from SANE Australia is using technology to provide objective information that cuts through illusion to potentially save lives.



